so its three days till my 17th birthday. Unlike previous posts may have given the impression, im fine. I'm seeing good things in the world for the first time in a while. Its like im no longer in my darker side. I'm takeing the time to do things that make me happy, and no longer holding in things. I miss jordan, and got a fine the other night but still i manage to be happy.
Im glad i got to spend time with chancey more, and as well as see old friends. I went to a "rave" not that long ago in terrace, it really sucked. Although we with our terrace friends managaed to make it a good night. It reminds me of my life symbolic-ly things can seem shitty but we always magange to go home thinking it was at least an okay night. Chancey also took my pictures! and i couldnt be more happy, although im trying to get my hermit phase turned off, cuz ive been on the computer on sites and blogs since i woke up haha! so heres some songs i recommend.

"Beautiful Place" - By Good Charlotte
"The Animal World" - By Grandaddy
"Civil Sin" - By Boy Kill Boy
"Smokers Outside The Hospital Doors" By Editors
"Golden Skans" - By Klaxons
"Nineteen" - By Tegan And Sara [NEW CDS OUT GO GET IT]

David!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH! i have to go to the dentists.

hey

So kitimats been the usuall, its been nice to see my friends again. Although at the moment everything that ever was supposed to effect me at the time they occured is hitting me now. I have a mix of feels, and yeah its wierd. I'm missing someone, but dono if i want to bother working it out. I like them, ive never like anyone the same. But it also adds to the reason why i shouldnt go back, because they have a boyfriend. But still, people say they like me, people say that thier boyfriend is controlling and all this. But what do people know ? i belive them sometimes then doubt it other times. Kind of like a coming and going self confidence that should be a thing thats premenent, i should be moving on letting go. But somethings stopping me, and instead of fixing it im just sitting here. No one knows what im feeling cuz im supposed to be over them. It was fate meeting them, and like everything else with this kind of destiny meeting i have a feeling it wasnt supposed to end in tragedy. Ive lost people this last school year. And summer is like im lost further out in the ocean.. sorry had to slam a beer. Im going out, but we'll leave you with some MUSIC NEWS!

kelly osbournes makeing a new cd! and hjas recorded with cyndi lauper, and i think is working with timbaland and maybe linda perry again ? im stoked the albums name is still tba, but is due for realse in DECEMEMBER.
also look for M.I.A.s new cd in august, its entiled after her mother and i will look that up again for you later!

download:
1. Creation Lake - By Silversun Pickups
2. Lost Cause - By Beck
3. Sober - By Kelly Clarkson
4. Knocked Up - By Kings Of Leon
5. The Salmon Dance - By The Chemical Brothers

david!

HEY! alright i didn't abandon this blog. I was just unable to write in it untill now! its been so long for me haha. So i'm back in kitimat and no longer on vaction, i wish i could of wrote more while i was on it but i only got to write about the worse day haha. Of course my negitivty is all that people see, so i'm gonna change that and try to sum it up the best i can!

Things turned around and luck started going better, i enjoyed the beach and a little bit of shopping. Although i did the majority in edmonton! I went to the beach with jackie and had to say goodbye again, although im glad shes moved back and i can see her more! I then went to greenwood, after me going to the concert didnt work out. AND FUCK WAS GREENWOOD BORING! it was the middle of nowhere for four days, I went all hilly billy and walked along the river for a while with my brother because it was 39 out, and i had a burn and heat rash! woohoo?

Alright well since i want you to get more of this in detail i will write about edmonton/pg another time! for now heres a download list, holy been so long since i did this

1. "Conquest" - By The White Stripes
2. "Do It Again" - By The Chemical Brothers
3. "The Heinrich Maneuveir" - By Interpol
4. "Friday Night" - By Lily Allen
5. The Magic Position" - By Patrick Wolf

David!

the days that lead up to leaving on my vaction were really fun, at points sad, but mostly reallllyyy fun. My friends had a party, i went to it got durnk took pics all that! then walked around for about 4ish hours, it was good bonding time, i wish had come sooner, for me and friend. Considering they left the next day after their dry grad, oh well. I also got to go to terrace for my last night before vaction, and me nat and micheal enjoyed the music. We danced, i got a little buzzed. It was so fun! definitly a trip to remember.
Although since ive been on vaction the flow has chnaged to bad luck and stressfull! Me & jackie have lost her card, had to get a hostel for her, blisters, had to walk for an hour and a half cuz the mall was closed when we got dropped off! had to deal with a bitchy aunt had something thrown at us by an old guy driving buy, and my mousse has sprayed all into my bag! oh well im hopeing today will get better since im going to the beach in a few then shopping with my mom at around 2

Galang - by M.I.A.
Wonderful Life - by Gwen Stefani
Backyard Betty - by Spank Rock
We can make sandwiches - by Grand ? Pubahs
Do it again - by the chemical brothers

David!

David!

heyy so,
sorry for not writeing for a while. Ive just been enjoying being done exams and all that. But still a little agrivated we havnt gotten our yearbooks yet!! talk about being late! Today me and jordan went shopping alllllll day haha, it was quite fun and i bought this outfit for a "full moon" show im going to, it had a whole bunch of djs and i plan on dancing, so it'll be really fun! I leave on vaction on sunday, and have a few things to do before then! so i'm going to go start doing thoses but i plan on writeing in here a lot before i leave and try writeing while im gone and add new photos and stuff throughout the course of my vacation BUT no promises! hahaha


David!

"BOYZ" - By M.I.A.
[HOW MANY TEQUILA IN THE PLACE,
HOW MANY BEERS IN THAT CASE!?]


"Fashionable People" - By Joel Plaskett Emergency


"Stranger" - By Hilary Duff


"My Moon, My Man" - By Feist


David!

Theres no one to look up to anymore, this school year has changed that for me. People you look up to, have tragedy struck upon them. One night it will all change.. The couple you akways wanted to have what they have, break up. You get let down by friends, then get in shit for trying to break away from them. you either get drunk, and get dramatic and feel guilty. Or sit at home, and your friends are upset and you feel guilty. The perfect familys are torn, and various celebertie idols are taken to jail or drunk all the time.
I really hope my friends dad gets better, and that the two friends who are having realtionship problems have things worked out. This is summer, the time of sun and fun but you can hardly tell. Oh well, things will look up.

5 songs to download:
1. "play crack the sky" - by brand new
2. "Sink Florida Sink" - by Against me!
3. "Handsome fus hate this city" - by Handsome Furs
4. "Rag & Bone" - By The White Stripes
5. "Just Watch The Fire Works" - by Jimmy Eat World

David!

Oh baby, its raining.

Not only is it pouring, but it is a storm. Its wierd how it fits most of the things that have been happening. Oh no, not all bad but during diffrent parts of the day, i feel on side of the scale is outwieghing the other. I havn't been "partying" lately, just going out during the day, then staying home at night. I don't know if i'm makeing a better decision or if i'm hideing. Lots of stuff happend last night, and I didn't even go out. Ugh, I wish I could yell at you.. you selfish prick she loved you and you were her everything. Even if things are okay with you guys, things arn't okay with me and you, i'll never forgive you for doing that to her. On prom night. This isn't a fucking soap opera so.. I'll talk about the good.
I went to terrace yesterday with courtney segear and she got her hair "did" at this really nice salon/spa called aveda, and i met this reall cool person. Who mentiond she'd be teaching a make up class, and a possibility of apprentincing for her and discount for mac makeup. Im so doing up that. I really want to do make up, my list of things i have to achomplish is getting bigger and bigger.

5 songs to download:
1. "Wierd" - By Hanson
2. "Yearbook" - By Hanson
3. "Kill" - By Jimmy Eat World
4. "Hustlin'" - By Rick Ross
5. "First Love" - By Uffie

David!

"Sealings" - By Yeah Yeah Yeahs
"Shh!" - by The Antlers
"Swimmers" - by Broken Social Scene
"Take Pills" - by Panda Bear



- "Vampire/Forest Fire" by The Arcade Fire

you want to be set apart,
burned all of your art,
repair the wastefull part,
im a vampire, in a forest fire,
hey we all got to keep warm,
hey we all got to keep warm,
driving towards toward the storm,
your father was a prevert,
face down in the dirt,
he taught you how to hurt,
my father was a miner,
who lived in the suburbs,
lets live in the suburbs,
if i live with a burn,
i can never return,
his new poetry,
how embarassing,
your sister pours the gasoline,
i'll fix your meal,
i'll fix your meal,
while your burns heal.


























Schools Done...
so are we.

hmm alright so this is my 51st blog entry. I've never stuck to a blog so long, haha and now i just want to write in it more and more. Ugh, let me start by saying people moving sucks, but i guess its greedy for me to say it sucks. Cuz when you consider the town we are living in, it rocks for them. They get their moment.. to suceed or fail, to realize who they are and what they have. I wait for the day i get to move somewhere where i get to be like "free" and open and pursue what i want, but i feel i'm wasteing my time just waiting for it. But i can't help it. Jackies gone now, Last day of school tommorow so soon the grade 12s will be gone. Who ive become quite close with some, Most people have no idea how much things have changed in the last month simply because, its all been secrets. That i will probably never reveal, and if i do it'll be to someone who dosnt matter, and then i'll be over it. Ugh im rambling, i'll miss all of you who leave and i'm jealous you get too.


5 songs to download:
1. "Porcelien" by Red Hot Chilli Peppers
2. "Air Wars" by Crystal Castles
3. "Wtf Unmixed" by Fake Shark - Real Zombie
4. "First Love" by Uffie
5. "Tamboruine" by Eve

David!

heyy so ive just been takeing it easy lately. It was an eventfull weekend, well morel ike tagic but i guess tragic is pretty much the same as eventfull. Its weird how when certain things happen to people you think alot about yourself, and how you can better yourself as a person. Or when you think of last tuesday and how immature someone could be, and still all that happens is you grow from it. Not as in "oh they got me good, i learned my lesson" but as in "damn getting rid of that person from my life is the best thing i can EVER do for myself". They are the type who thinks they are all that and they have nothing they could possibly learn, in other words they are the ones who are really immature. But this isnt a blog made to diss, i don't write up posts on bands i dont like, or songs i don't like why waste my time putting down someting someone else loves so anyway on with the things i love. You don't like them, stop fucking comeing here.

trashy life...




5 Songs To Download:

5 songs to download
1. "First Love" - By Uffie
2. "Breakin Dishes" - By Rihanna
3. "Little Room" - By The White Stripes
4. "City Noise" - By Scarling
5. "Egyptian Lover" - By The Misshapes

David!

when you close your eyes, and feel like your falling. When the music hurts your head, when your throwing shit in your room and near fainting. We're microwaving bacon, and pissing on campers without wheels. Your smiles from last nights pictures are a distant memory, like the instant messages which were as filled with emotion as the donouts are filled with jelly. You can't sleep. Are we breathing? is it a waste of a breath? Are we evaporting and landing on someones skin only to be slowly absorbed, like the drinks your dropping on the carpet.

heyy,

so things have been alright i guess, although they have also been shitty. I can see them "slowly" getting better. Since monday has been pretty eventfull, well on monday i first of all got drunk. At my friend jackies house because she was supposed to be leaving, in the midst of dancing and prepareing water and stuff to throw on someone, i realized how much im gonna miss her. We went to her empty room and it was wierd to see nothing.. except a few left behind things and a mirror. "Save Tonight" by eagle eye cherry came on and during singing the chorus there was a line "tommorow i'll be gone" and jackie was singing along then it realized, and with many crying moments. When i left i realized leaving for the last time was probably one of my most hardest things i had to do. I know I have other friends but i can't help but feeling like im loosing a big part of me, it was like an story book that was ending again. We've been threw so much, to meeting people, dying our hair, losing friends, arguging with each other, house partys, terrace trips, cute is what we aim for, running around drunk, dancing by ourselfs on halloween, crushes on both sides, throwing cups at cars, spliting 40s, drugs, calling people in vancouver saying they owe us money for our hooker services.

so much, but were on pause again. like the moment when your favorite bands cd ends after a first listen, and all you can do is wait for the next album to come out.

5 songs to download:
1. save tonight - eagle eyed cherry
2. world at large - modest mouse
3. If you leave - nada surf
4. heres to the nights - eve 6
5. catch my diease - ben lee

David!

hmm,
so i'm pretty hungover, woohoo? I couldnt sleep at all last night, i passed out a like 7 and woke up before 12. My lab top (with all my music) is being a peice and not turning on. UGH. Things here keep fucking up! So thursday was hirsh, pretty fun lots of people big fire. Got drunk, friends punched people all that you know! & on friday, it was alright but extremly wierd. Me and jordan went to shell and got chase and just drank by ourselfs and took this nice pictures, which i'll put up sometime, i actually quite enjoy them! Yesterday i went thrift shoping with jordan got a pair of shades, jordan got a matching pair then.. i got a jacket and book. Jordan bought everything the store had. Later that night, i went to cassies birthday at codys, took some pics with a bear, danced, jello shooters, and talked to someone ive sat by for almost the whole year for the first time when they had to walk up the hill at the same time. Then i met natalie, and we went to rons. Expected drama and stuff and was worried, espically when i was just arriving there i realized my belt was undone! I played some gutair on a left handed one, i was pretty good. Smoked some stuff, and yeah grand old time, sort of. Then went to go to robs party, but we arrived and the people who told us to come wernt there anymore. So i went home and stayed up till 7 am cuz i couldnt sleep.


5 songs to download:
1. "sowing season" - by Brand New
2. "the animals are gone" - by Damien Rice
3. "Wolves at night" - by Manchester Orchestra
4. "I can barely breathe" - by Manchester Orchestra
5. "Miss New Booty" - by bubba sparxxx

David!

things suck.


yet they are the best they have ever been. im at an akward stage when things are the best but something is eating at me and reminds me that realistically, they are the worse they have ever been. Im a trooper though, i'd rather have a rough time with something it makes you stronger. Ive been going out alot, its been really fun. Hirsh last night was quite good, im suprized more then half the people i invited came
it was grand


5 songs to download
1. "i hate you so much right now" - kelis
2. "comeback kid" - silversun pickups
3. "dirty" - christina aguilera
4. "heart shaped glasses" - marilyn manson
5. "gimmie gimmie gimmie" - abba

Think about yourself at the ending of the last grade you were in, and now think of all thats happend. How much you've changed, your looks & your personality. Your probably not even the same person, or are you exactly the same just in a diffrent situation? Are you still drinking when you don't really want to, are you still doing drugs when you don't like them anymore? What are you addicted too, is it still the party or is whats in your cup? Are you makeing new friends, or just losing old ones? Are you ready to leave, and are you ready to be left? Its all self anaylzing.. and it'll drive you insane, because the more you think the more you contradict. Cuz truth be told your not sure about anything.


songs to download
1. Supersonic - by JJ FAD
2. Ace of Spades - by motorhead
3. Djs got a gun - by robots in disguise
4. Jesus Christ - by brand new
5. starter - by the cardigans

Heres some photographs I took in photography..






Mon Model Est Chancey




Song to listen to while viewing

"A Torrid Love Affair" By Boys Night Out

David!

has time ever gone by so fast yet so slow at the same time. Theres only 21 days left till my grade 11 year is over, thats only 12 days of actuall school left. Let me tell you, theres some people i'm really going to miss, and it really scares me that they are leaving and i have to stay here. This town makes me feel like i'm nothing, and that i'm not doing anything. Just because everything i love that makes me feel whole is somewhere else, to the party scene in nyc, the san deigo beaches, west edmonton mall, okangon getaways and music scene, the shops and auditions in vancouver. What do we have here? drunken nights of gossip that are filled with things you wish you had and hadnt said. Oh well one more year left, despite how much i feel like i should be gradding with those that i dont want to leave, 12 school days from now.

SONGS TO DOWNLOAD:
1. "Campfire Kansas" - By The Get Up Kids
2. "One Two Three Four" - By Feist
3. "How a Resurrection Really Feels" - By The Hold Steady
4. "Misery Business" - By Paramore
5. "Heres To The Night" - By Eve 6
6. "Back To Black" - By Amy Winehouse
7. "I See Spiders When I Close My Eyes" - By The Boy Least Likely Too
8. "Expecting" - By The White Stripes

heyy again,
long time no write. Maylong is over, and i enjoyed a couple days of camping with some friends! we stayed at this speical spot on the hot springs "water slides/pool" where the owner let us. Then we'd walk to minette bay where all the partys and people were. The first night we didnt really get in, but got all lost and confused and had a grand ol drunk time. On saturday we got in and most of the group wanted to leave at 11 me and nat wanting to stay later, stayed behind then got split up, around 130ish in the morning i realized i didnt know where i was going, after being offered a tent i found my friends and jumped in a back of a truck and went back to the campsite. IT WAS A TRECK! Then the next day we walked to the lake, showered and hit the beach it was so nice. We then went around on my friends boat, and i just layed and tanned then later came home and hung out with some friends. Got my trampelene set up and all that, and my lab top is nearing being full of music hahaha, and some videos.

5 songs to download
1. "Misery Busniess" - By Paramore
2. "My Friend Dario" - By Vitalic
3. "Snowball" - By Test Icicles
4. "Janes Song" - By Janes Addiction
5. "Yellow Submarine" - By The Beatles

David!