heyy so im writing this, i guess so i can read it again some other time. Its my stab at being artsy, although you cant be "orignal" anymore, so why try right. And how the fuck do you be artsy without the orignality, i feel so wierd right now. But i cant write wierd things to re desribe how i was feeling, the more you look at something the more it looks like jello, your back hurts, and you feel like you have to crack your ankle but you dont. fuck and minutes, are hours. why are things takeing this long ? or are they i dono things are fucked, and i think im comeing down, but i dont know it keeps comeing back. well wtf, ive been high for almost 8 hours ahh fuckk im going bye

David!

heyy the computers so wierd right now, its like its making patterns, and i really think cats are always on e. ahh i dfeel like people are watching what im writing. although they would know that its my blog and not read into my own stuff right , yeahh andn madonna is tripppiing me the fuck out

David!

Lately I Feel Like I'm Going To Die

oh yeah i broke up with my boyfriend heres some pictures i took of borodom, i think they are depressing.

hey,
so i feel like writeing a long entry this time. I dono why, maybe its cuz i have nothing else to do. Last night was pretty fun, havnt been that drunk in a while and it was fun. I drank a pack of coldshots, and some other stuff with friends. I just have to keep reminding myself, to live for me. ME ME ME. as selfish as it sounds, its the truth. Im not saying i wanna be an asshole, and only involved me in myself. ALthough im saying i need to make myself happy, and if that means removing myself from other peoples problems. So be it.
today my dad made me dig a bit of a hole, and still wants me to do more. But bahahahaha, im not feeling anywhere good enough to do that shit. Its weird how much lifting up hunks of dirt by grass, reminds me of pulling someone up by the hair. I never have pulled someone up by the hair before. But i assume it feels about the same as that.
I have an interview at dq tommorow, yeah me workings weird. But w.e. i really hope i get the job, i think i can do it even though im nervous about the whole situation right now.
Im not gonna write a list of songs for you to download, but download so my chemical romance from the album "i brought you my bullets, you brought me your love" its all sweet. oh yes and the mary onnetes are SO good also so hit them up on myspace or something.

David!

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five lindsay songs to download

rumors - by lindsay lohan
first - by " "
black hole - by " "
i want you to want me - " "
over - by " "

David!

you know how no one eats that "smart" cereal, isnt it amazing how much we are like ceral. I mean no one wants the "smart" people, we only want the cereal thats known and on tv. So why is it diffrent for people? Yeah sorry i was just listening to a song and this all came into perspective. Hahaha.
Shorelines cds have come in, i enjoy them alot. You should check them out this is their myspace..

http://www.myspace.com/shorelinetheband

i hope you enjoy them.
In other news things have been good, ive been jogging. Talking to my boyfriend on msn. Yes its weird to admit for me but i have one, other then that ive been watching friends, reading the hardy boys, tanning, and trying to find a job. Although if you read this would would probably never hire me, but! neverless put in a good word for me wherever it is you work. I need the money if i want to go to an acting summer thing called gifts next year. AH one more year of school left. Then it will change from want to do, to doing.

Some songs you should download:

"my machine" - by princess superstar
"summer snow" - by shoreline
"manic monday" - by the bangles


David!

over the past while of not writeing. I've realized an important thing, weather your just making out with people for fun, or in a realtionship.. if your overall problem dosnt go awat you know its your fault. Yeah that really long sentence, which my past english teachers would probably frown upon like almost all my work, porbably needs some explain. Although i'm chosing not too other then "i got a boyfriend" and "i made out with some people" not nessicarly in that order. Both of the times i was left we myself, whos been negitive lately and only thinking of my flaws. Oh well, I dono what to do i havnt been all upfront and stuff with my friends anymore guess im growing up and realizing the only people who need to know, are the people who can remember to take the time to read your blog.

5 songs to download:

when did you heart go missing - by rooney
the ends not near its here - by band of horses
bamboo banga - by M.I.A.
on call - by kings of leon
nineteen - by tegan and sara


david!

so its three days till my 17th birthday. Unlike previous posts may have given the impression, im fine. I'm seeing good things in the world for the first time in a while. Its like im no longer in my darker side. I'm takeing the time to do things that make me happy, and no longer holding in things. I miss jordan, and got a fine the other night but still i manage to be happy.
Im glad i got to spend time with chancey more, and as well as see old friends. I went to a "rave" not that long ago in terrace, it really sucked. Although we with our terrace friends managaed to make it a good night. It reminds me of my life symbolic-ly things can seem shitty but we always magange to go home thinking it was at least an okay night. Chancey also took my pictures! and i couldnt be more happy, although im trying to get my hermit phase turned off, cuz ive been on the computer on sites and blogs since i woke up haha! so heres some songs i recommend.

"Beautiful Place" - By Good Charlotte
"The Animal World" - By Grandaddy
"Civil Sin" - By Boy Kill Boy
"Smokers Outside The Hospital Doors" By Editors
"Golden Skans" - By Klaxons
"Nineteen" - By Tegan And Sara [NEW CDS OUT GO GET IT]

David!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH! i have to go to the dentists.

hey

So kitimats been the usuall, its been nice to see my friends again. Although at the moment everything that ever was supposed to effect me at the time they occured is hitting me now. I have a mix of feels, and yeah its wierd. I'm missing someone, but dono if i want to bother working it out. I like them, ive never like anyone the same. But it also adds to the reason why i shouldnt go back, because they have a boyfriend. But still, people say they like me, people say that thier boyfriend is controlling and all this. But what do people know ? i belive them sometimes then doubt it other times. Kind of like a coming and going self confidence that should be a thing thats premenent, i should be moving on letting go. But somethings stopping me, and instead of fixing it im just sitting here. No one knows what im feeling cuz im supposed to be over them. It was fate meeting them, and like everything else with this kind of destiny meeting i have a feeling it wasnt supposed to end in tragedy. Ive lost people this last school year. And summer is like im lost further out in the ocean.. sorry had to slam a beer. Im going out, but we'll leave you with some MUSIC NEWS!

kelly osbournes makeing a new cd! and hjas recorded with cyndi lauper, and i think is working with timbaland and maybe linda perry again ? im stoked the albums name is still tba, but is due for realse in DECEMEMBER.
also look for M.I.A.s new cd in august, its entiled after her mother and i will look that up again for you later!

download:
1. Creation Lake - By Silversun Pickups
2. Lost Cause - By Beck
3. Sober - By Kelly Clarkson
4. Knocked Up - By Kings Of Leon
5. The Salmon Dance - By The Chemical Brothers

david!

HEY! alright i didn't abandon this blog. I was just unable to write in it untill now! its been so long for me haha. So i'm back in kitimat and no longer on vaction, i wish i could of wrote more while i was on it but i only got to write about the worse day haha. Of course my negitivty is all that people see, so i'm gonna change that and try to sum it up the best i can!

Things turned around and luck started going better, i enjoyed the beach and a little bit of shopping. Although i did the majority in edmonton! I went to the beach with jackie and had to say goodbye again, although im glad shes moved back and i can see her more! I then went to greenwood, after me going to the concert didnt work out. AND FUCK WAS GREENWOOD BORING! it was the middle of nowhere for four days, I went all hilly billy and walked along the river for a while with my brother because it was 39 out, and i had a burn and heat rash! woohoo?

Alright well since i want you to get more of this in detail i will write about edmonton/pg another time! for now heres a download list, holy been so long since i did this

1. "Conquest" - By The White Stripes
2. "Do It Again" - By The Chemical Brothers
3. "The Heinrich Maneuveir" - By Interpol
4. "Friday Night" - By Lily Allen
5. The Magic Position" - By Patrick Wolf

David!

the days that lead up to leaving on my vaction were really fun, at points sad, but mostly reallllyyy fun. My friends had a party, i went to it got durnk took pics all that! then walked around for about 4ish hours, it was good bonding time, i wish had come sooner, for me and friend. Considering they left the next day after their dry grad, oh well. I also got to go to terrace for my last night before vaction, and me nat and micheal enjoyed the music. We danced, i got a little buzzed. It was so fun! definitly a trip to remember.
Although since ive been on vaction the flow has chnaged to bad luck and stressfull! Me & jackie have lost her card, had to get a hostel for her, blisters, had to walk for an hour and a half cuz the mall was closed when we got dropped off! had to deal with a bitchy aunt had something thrown at us by an old guy driving buy, and my mousse has sprayed all into my bag! oh well im hopeing today will get better since im going to the beach in a few then shopping with my mom at around 2

Galang - by M.I.A.
Wonderful Life - by Gwen Stefani
Backyard Betty - by Spank Rock
We can make sandwiches - by Grand ? Pubahs
Do it again - by the chemical brothers

David!

David!

heyy so,
sorry for not writeing for a while. Ive just been enjoying being done exams and all that. But still a little agrivated we havnt gotten our yearbooks yet!! talk about being late! Today me and jordan went shopping alllllll day haha, it was quite fun and i bought this outfit for a "full moon" show im going to, it had a whole bunch of djs and i plan on dancing, so it'll be really fun! I leave on vaction on sunday, and have a few things to do before then! so i'm going to go start doing thoses but i plan on writeing in here a lot before i leave and try writeing while im gone and add new photos and stuff throughout the course of my vacation BUT no promises! hahaha


David!

"BOYZ" - By M.I.A.
[HOW MANY TEQUILA IN THE PLACE,
HOW MANY BEERS IN THAT CASE!?]


"Fashionable People" - By Joel Plaskett Emergency


"Stranger" - By Hilary Duff


"My Moon, My Man" - By Feist


David!

Theres no one to look up to anymore, this school year has changed that for me. People you look up to, have tragedy struck upon them. One night it will all change.. The couple you akways wanted to have what they have, break up. You get let down by friends, then get in shit for trying to break away from them. you either get drunk, and get dramatic and feel guilty. Or sit at home, and your friends are upset and you feel guilty. The perfect familys are torn, and various celebertie idols are taken to jail or drunk all the time.
I really hope my friends dad gets better, and that the two friends who are having realtionship problems have things worked out. This is summer, the time of sun and fun but you can hardly tell. Oh well, things will look up.

5 songs to download:
1. "play crack the sky" - by brand new
2. "Sink Florida Sink" - by Against me!
3. "Handsome fus hate this city" - by Handsome Furs
4. "Rag & Bone" - By The White Stripes
5. "Just Watch The Fire Works" - by Jimmy Eat World

David!

Oh baby, its raining.

Not only is it pouring, but it is a storm. Its wierd how it fits most of the things that have been happening. Oh no, not all bad but during diffrent parts of the day, i feel on side of the scale is outwieghing the other. I havn't been "partying" lately, just going out during the day, then staying home at night. I don't know if i'm makeing a better decision or if i'm hideing. Lots of stuff happend last night, and I didn't even go out. Ugh, I wish I could yell at you.. you selfish prick she loved you and you were her everything. Even if things are okay with you guys, things arn't okay with me and you, i'll never forgive you for doing that to her. On prom night. This isn't a fucking soap opera so.. I'll talk about the good.
I went to terrace yesterday with courtney segear and she got her hair "did" at this really nice salon/spa called aveda, and i met this reall cool person. Who mentiond she'd be teaching a make up class, and a possibility of apprentincing for her and discount for mac makeup. Im so doing up that. I really want to do make up, my list of things i have to achomplish is getting bigger and bigger.

5 songs to download:
1. "Wierd" - By Hanson
2. "Yearbook" - By Hanson
3. "Kill" - By Jimmy Eat World
4. "Hustlin'" - By Rick Ross
5. "First Love" - By Uffie

David!

"Sealings" - By Yeah Yeah Yeahs
"Shh!" - by The Antlers
"Swimmers" - by Broken Social Scene
"Take Pills" - by Panda Bear



- "Vampire/Forest Fire" by The Arcade Fire

you want to be set apart,
burned all of your art,
repair the wastefull part,
im a vampire, in a forest fire,
hey we all got to keep warm,
hey we all got to keep warm,
driving towards toward the storm,
your father was a prevert,
face down in the dirt,
he taught you how to hurt,
my father was a miner,
who lived in the suburbs,
lets live in the suburbs,
if i live with a burn,
i can never return,
his new poetry,
how embarassing,
your sister pours the gasoline,
i'll fix your meal,
i'll fix your meal,
while your burns heal.


























Schools Done...
so are we.

hmm alright so this is my 51st blog entry. I've never stuck to a blog so long, haha and now i just want to write in it more and more. Ugh, let me start by saying people moving sucks, but i guess its greedy for me to say it sucks. Cuz when you consider the town we are living in, it rocks for them. They get their moment.. to suceed or fail, to realize who they are and what they have. I wait for the day i get to move somewhere where i get to be like "free" and open and pursue what i want, but i feel i'm wasteing my time just waiting for it. But i can't help it. Jackies gone now, Last day of school tommorow so soon the grade 12s will be gone. Who ive become quite close with some, Most people have no idea how much things have changed in the last month simply because, its all been secrets. That i will probably never reveal, and if i do it'll be to someone who dosnt matter, and then i'll be over it. Ugh im rambling, i'll miss all of you who leave and i'm jealous you get too.


5 songs to download:
1. "Porcelien" by Red Hot Chilli Peppers
2. "Air Wars" by Crystal Castles
3. "Wtf Unmixed" by Fake Shark - Real Zombie
4. "First Love" by Uffie
5. "Tamboruine" by Eve

David!